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…….an exploration of personal stories, philosophical musings, and spiritual practices that emerge from failing and beginning again.

  • Monsters

    Some children are convinced that there are monsters under the bed. For me they didn’t live there, but instead they floated overhead, whispering to and fro in ghostly apparition. They would dive down to attack me and then ride back to the ceiling and taunt me. They were very REAL, grotesque disfigured shapes competing with…

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  • Building models

    Until I was nine, I shared a room with my older brother. He was into building model aircraft, which were suspended from the roof by cotton: Spitfires, Stukas, commercial jets and more. It was natural for me to want to build models too. At Elston’s – the local toy store – there was a wall…

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  • Everyone Knows

    Everyone knows there’s a problem But how in the hell did it happen? Democracy’s wheel is starting to squeal Under the weight of the ambition Everyone knows Everyone knows, of the madman But, the will of the crowd has spoken The word of the chief,  Is hard to believe Maybe the job is out of his…

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  • The Waterloo Hotel

    In another ode to the Duke’s of Wellington, another pub in Crowthorne was called the Waterloo hotel. The hotel, even though called the Waterloo, was colloquially known as ‘the penguin’ as in: “I’m going down the penguin’.  Memory serves a reminder  that there were penguins kept in a pool on the  property. These I would suggest were captive Fairy…

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  • Demon in the street

    I was woken by a demon in the street. At first I thought it must be inside me, streaming a school of guttural language, Undefined. A fist grabbed my heart. Fight or flight in action. Could have been anything. Then in my waking, I thought, Is this inside of me or out? Before I rationalised…

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  • The teapot incident

    As with most people, awareness of the world was limited until maybe the age of 18 months  (friends tell me that I was unusual in this and they don’t have any memories before age 3). Already I was showing signs of adventurousness and ambition. An early target for this was a teapot left on the stove…

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  • City hums

    Rivers of cars hiss on wet roads A jet scratches its way overhead, Leaving a wake of engine noise.  A tram rattles and glides away into white noise of suburbs. Beyond washes of traffic, The city hums. An undercurrent Like standing beneath power pylons. It hums. Its heart is a beating nightclub Streets are arteries.…

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  • The Iron Duke

    Wellington Road Crowthorne is a street named in honour of the 1st Duke of Wellington- Arthur Wellesley, the victor at the Battle of Waterloo, where Napoleon Boneparte was defeated in battle before being exiled to the isle of St.Helena . Wellesley’s imprint was spread across the town of Crowthorne, from Wellington Road to Waterloo Road and…

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  • Getting noticed

    Everybody’s trying to  get noticed . It’s an affirmation of our lives. It isn’t real until it’s been, tweeted, facebooked or socialized. Everybody’s trying to get noticed.  15 seconds of fame is everybody’s aim. Did Andy get it wrong back in the sixties, the measure of success is the number of website hits you Facebook gets an hour  Would mother Theresa…

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  • A promise to marry

    Having experienced the hardships of World War 2, psychological hangovers were still being dealt with by Peter (who turned out to be my father). He joined the navy at 16 in 1937. Basic training turned out to be more about the skills of seamanship than the reality of war. Sometimes, after a beer too many…

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